decadence

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Yesterday I was so disappointed in my life and crying a lot.

I calculated how much money I’m getting and it was…

Ah, it’s crushed me😔 It was really hard to know, that I can’t just start working on the “dream job”, because I don’t have enough skills

And 3 months before was so hard…

Whatever

In march I’m completed a writing course (just to have some certificate to prove my skills) and from that course I have some little stories. So, after my mental breakdown, I decided to sent my story to the journal. I hope they are saw it and, in case they don’t like the story, I posting it here.

And in few days I want to posting another little story from the course ☺️

Hope you enjoy ❤️

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There are many changes in my life right now.

Both: external and internal.

The most important thing for me is that I finally figured out what I want to be when I grow up. It’s stuck in my head, and I have several goals to achieve my dream. With small, neat steps, so, as not to frighten, me go to my goal. Tasks are set before me, but I feel the strength inside. The power to do what I want to do. I know what I can do. I have me, I have my love, I have my friends, who will support me. And though I’m still dark and scary around me, I see light. There, far away, but it is more and more windows light up lighting my way. Like lighthouses. Thanks. Thank to me. Thank you, my love.

PS: It was a post of gratitude to the Universe and the ways in which she led me so that I came to myself 😌

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Recently, I remembered a beautiful book that stuck with me, though nonfiction (and I do not like them very much). It was a distant year 2017. My friend and I decided to have a small flash mob reading books for a year. We had a list of genres and everyone picked a book and read. And one of those genres was nonfiction. I’ve been looking for something to read for a long time, I was bored and not interested and I come across this gorgeous cover with the intriguing title “Hygge. The Secret of Danish Happiness”

It is a sin to pass by such a book (I will run a little ahead, it turned out that not only past the book). I read it in almost one breath. Incredibly interesting, and honestly, vibe hygge is transmitted even through text. In short, the author explains how Danes spend their time, what they do, how they create their comfort, impressions and memories, and what this philosophy of hygge is. And how that’s what keeps them in the lead among countries in terms of happiness in the population.

I finished the book, it left a pleasant residue inside, and a couple of days later, I continued flashmob reading books. And, absorbed in the new book, has already slightly grown accustomed to the secret of happiness. But happiness would not be happiness if it did not find you. And here on October 16, 2017 (so special day now ☺️) I find the news that the authors of the book come to Kiyv with the presentation of this book. And of course I went there 😌 (and it was free)

There was a very 🌈hygge🌈 and this evening left me with a lot of positive emotions and memories 😌

At this meeting I had my first taste of cheese with mold (or rather camembert, and then cheese with mold - one love)

And the authors themselves maximally transmitted the atmosphere hygge for all who came

There were these vibe chairs and a bunch of snacks, wine and blankets

But only the authors had the blankets, and since the room was warm enough, they couldn’t resist taking the blankets off their knees, but they said we should keep it in mind 😅

It was a great night with great company and great atmosphere.

Hygge is what you fill up with even when you just listen about him 😌

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When your friend coocked delicious salat for you, but you are so dumb, that you got in your head thought about how large portion is and feel yourself so bad, that you’re nauseous now.

I think I’m have some kind of eating disorder 🤔

But whatever. I know, that I was planning this blog like my writers journey, but I think this IS a part of my journey. And I’m hope that in near future I’m continued writing my book. Please, send me some kind 😔

P.S.: I’m know, that I’m don’t write well in English, but I’m trying.

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Netflix just realized one of my favourite novel by Erich Maria Remarque “All quiet on the Western front”

And I’m really want to watch this movie, but I’m afraid I’m just can’t. At least now. Cuz war in my country still going on. And it’s hard.

When I read Remarque it was so hard to imagine through what hel main character passed. And all book I hoping that wars never repeat. Cuz it’s hard and painful. And now, thanks for the f@cking neighbour, my family, my friends and all people in my country have to live under the bombs.

But I’m still hope, that people, who watch this movie or read the book, could understand how important to live in peace.

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